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Wednesday, October 30, 2013
dreamy dream that will probably led me to a lonely life forever.

my dream was the BEST last night.
i don't know why i even dreamed of having a party at my friend's house and One Direction suddenly came.
i mean, there are freaking lots of boy bands out there, but why One Direction?
i'm not excited about that part but i'm excited that the one of the boys in that band were actually Korean and the rest of them are local [some suddenly are students from my school].
i don't even know why i dreamed about this!

in that dream, i was with the Korean guy and we planned to run away together.
i told my momma that i wanted to further my studies in Korea [so that i can be with that dream guy].
much to my dismay, it was only a dream.
*sobs hysterically*

if only it was real!
[even if it was real, i'd much prefer Japan than Korea]

anyway, i am thankful that i randomly dreamed about this dream because it actually taught me one lesson.
one lesson that i didn't even think of last night.
it is that i can rock my life even without the presence of that person.

the thrilling part for me is that i can actually go and search for a handsome guy.
not necessarily a local guy but a guy out from this country.
i'm getting dreamy.
a part of me actually told me that i am grateful that this is over so that i can open new chapter with someone much more handsome and manly better!

 i do realise however that if my dream starts to get higher than what i can actually achieve, i would probably end up being alone for eternity.

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

if you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.

yeah, it's 1AM and most people probably would think that i am stupid for waking up early.
it's just that i don't have any peace in mind.
it's like there is one unsettled thing that i need to push out from my brain.

you know, we all have that one day [or maybe two] where everything just doesn't work out.
the condition is too bad that i don't know what to do.
i know what i want but i just don't know how to say it because it's crap.

most sane students would just ignore this and continue studying for like 5 days before SPM.
yet i am still here lingering.
because i don't feel PEACEFUL at all!

most high school romances will end up with misery.
but this kind if stuff is rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish rubbish.

this is trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash trash.

why do i even care?
i deserve a better one.
much much much better one.

we all have our own imperfections. my own flawless.
if i can accept your imperfections, then why can't you?
i am born to be like this. full of curiousity and always overthink.
a small matter sure will become a bigger one until you could shut me up.
if you couldn't shut my mouth up, then how can you prove that you're talking honestly?
i don't know why maybe because of my background as i am born like this.

i have LOTS of other things to think of.
Dear Feo, this is just some stupid crap that you need to ignore.
if that person doesn't give any crap of your feelings, then that person doesn't deserve to even exist.
seriously, if you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.

yes, troubles always come looking for me.
it's not because i want to but it's the cycle of life.

do you know why it's called broken? because it can't be fixed anymore.
this crap can't be fixed anymore.
while someone's grieving, the other one might not even think of it already.

so Feo, shut your mouth and continue to study.

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Sunday, October 27, 2013
the talented left unnoticed.

i can't help but to waste my time watching this.

Christina Aguilera is so awesome and she's gonna be so legendary.

i don't understand why some crappy artists who can't sing got a lot more attention than those who can sing.
hence, i couldn't agree more to the two comments below.

seriously, Selena Gomez?
sure, her songs are nice [i like her songs] but that does not mean she deserves to get lots of attention and awards.
her vocal range is so not good and she depends too much with the back up singers.
look up her live performances on YouTube and name me one concert she did with a high vocal range just like Christina's. just one.
i'm sure you'll spend the rest of you life searching for the non-existent.

One Direction? sure, their songs are nice but they sure can't beat the previous legendary boy bands for instance Simple Plan, Green Day, Good Charlotte, Fall Out Boys, McFly, and et cetera.

i stand with my opinion that nowadays the entertainment world prioritize handsome and pretty faces than actual talents.
that's why most songs have the same pattern because some untalented artists depend solely on autotunes to make their songs catchy.

i also think that Demi Lovato is awesome and talented because she didn't use autotunes [although some accused her to].
even her vocal range during live performances are better than the recorded ones!

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Monday, October 21, 2013
i saw a light shining and it pierced through my retina

i have made ZERO preparation.
i don't even know whether it is the time that goes faster or i am the one who's wasting my time.
nah, i knew i was the one who was wasting my time.

i thought i was lost in the darkness and then couldn't find the way out.
but then i saw this light......

YES! i MUST try harder so that i will not FAIL in this last WAR in high school!
i shouldn't just hope for the grading this year to become lower.
but i do really hope that they will not make any changes in this current grading.

anyway, anyhow, anywhat,
i am going to torture myself for one month.
this is too last minute preparation and later after i got my result, i promise that i will not blame anyone except my lazy ass.

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Thursday, October 10, 2013
pomeranian puppies ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

hello today i'm sick.
my mood this morning is : I WANT A POMERANIAN PUPPY!!

[image from Google]

seriously, why are they so fluffy and CUTE?!
arghtttttttt! i can't stand their cuteness.
too cute to be true.

even when their furs are shaved, they still look cute!
they look like a plushie. a real walking plushie.

[image from Google]

i adore dogs more than cats.
dogs are more useful than cats.
they are your loyal friend, they are with you everytime you need them, and they are not grumpy like cats.
they don't scratch their owner even if they just gave birth to puppies.
but cats will scratch and i don't like cats.
i hate it when the furs of the cats can be easily pulled and i once remember a doctor told me it's the cause of asthma.

dogs keep your house from thieves and they warn you when stranger comes.
but what did cats always do? they will turn around and walk away arrogantly.
i hate that.

whenever people are adoring stray cats who asked them for their foods at the school's canteen, i feel like shooing the cats away. it's not because i'm evil or whatever you call it is but it's because they are annoying when they keep on meow-ing and they poo and pee in the classroom that makes me feel too dizzy to study.
i feel sad for stray dogs because people will in school will never pet a stray dog, neither gave the stray dog their foods.
it's an unfair treatment.

enough with that.
i'm in love with pomeranian dogs and one day i'd like to keep them as my pet inside my house.
i feel like giving lots of love to them ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

so this is a vlog of a pomeranian puppy from Bubzbeauty.
she owns one!

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Wednesday, October 9, 2013
surrounding positive friends

in this world, doesn't matter whether you do bad things or good deeds, people will still search for your mistakes.

name me one artist or celebrity that doesn't have a hater.
name me one normal individual that doesn't have a hater.
even God's haters also exist.

even two or more fakers were the nearest friend of mine [now not anymore].
it's like when he/she is infront of you, he/she acts like a person who cares and agrees with you.
but when he/she is with another friend, he/she will start to talk bad things about you.

after observing for a while, i found out that these people who talk bad things and hating behind me are actually people who don't have a good life to live.
they don't have a fun life to live so they can only talk and hate other people.
i observed that most of them come from a broken family and very few of them come from a super loving family that gave them the freedom.

if i were still the same person as before, i'd confront them and childish arguments will explode.
however, now i knew better it is very meaningless to talk with people like that.
your words will become just like dirty dust being blown away.

it's weird that right now i'm not angry or going to explode.
'cause it just shows that their life sucks and they can't help talking about other people's life.
Debbie was right when she said it's meaningless to have arguments in high school.

right now i'm just gonna stay away from people like that 'cause i'm afraid i'll be contaminated with that kind of negative attitude. i don't want to be like that. 
i need a reminder everytime i'm about to practice that kind of attitude.

i've read various books and by the end of the story, the books always include the message that we must be surrounded by positive people.
hence, i'd push away and ignore those who gives out negative aura.

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Tuesday, October 8, 2013
i've been really addicted to online shopping

so for these past few days i've been quite addicted to online shopping.
or the exact word is super addicted.
it's like the shopaholic inside of me is bulging from inside.

you know that you're a shopaholic when you saw all the cute things that you love and even if you don't really need them, you'd suddenly think that it is the top priority in your life to buy it.
and i just did it.

one day i woke up at 6AM because i'd like to surf at those online shops.
i'd like to browse some things like cute notebooks, stickers, and etc.
unknowingly, i looked at the clock and it was 9AM already.
yes, i just wasted my time over this crazy obsession.

the most wonderful thing is, the things that i bought [ordering right now] are quite cheap and rare to be found around here since they're shipped from overseas such as Korea, China, Japan & etc [based on where the seller comes from].

the most unfortunate thing is, when you banked in the money, it'll take 2-3 business days for them to confirm it since they're from overseas.
if you order things from China, the shipping takes 15-30 days.
all you need is patience.

didn't they always say that good things come to those who wait?

my most favourite website right now?
so if you'd like to waste your money over unnecessary things just search for more at :

why do i look like a promoter now?

anyway, the best part about today is that my payment has been confirmed as soon as the holiday for China's National Day has ended [or whatever it is called].

[just click to enlarge, human!!]

the item that i ordered costs RM23.40 [after i used my coupon] and then after i banked in RM30, the balance is then automatically transferred into my QAccount! [which i can use later to buy more useless but cute things]
Qoo10 really do keep their promises unlike other scamming online shop.

[my QAccount]

however so, i don't know how to add more $$ into my QAccount.
but i guess i'll research more to it later [and waste another 5 hours on it]/

whatever it is, i found something that made me laugh like hell the other day, which is this...

i mean, isn't this is too 'online-shopaholic-ing' ?!
you can just buy a freaking rubber band for your hair anywhere with the same price.
even kedai runcit also have, so why bother?

0 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-

Monday, October 7, 2013
books that almost made me stupid.

as a caring student, i need to express my sad feeling upon the unprofessionalism of this book's publisher.

[i don't know its brand]

when i bought this book, i really thought it could help me a lot.
but apparently i was so wrong.
most of the questions and answers are wrong.

i've compared the answers with a different Chemistry book published by Sasbadi Sdn Bhd. [as shown below] and apparently Sasbadi's answers are more accurate and correct and logic.

[i recommend you to buy from Sasbadi. they're very trustworthy]

back to the subject, these are the questions that will mislead students who are sincere to learn.

[they typed "displayed" although it was supposed to be "displaced"]

even the slightest mistake in spelling could make a big difference for students to choose their answer.
i mean, if the publisher of this book would like the students to excel, then why didn't they recheck the spellings before selling it out?

[all the answers got the same "+57" even though actually there are supposed to be "-57" too because that's the correct answer for exothermic reaction]

[most of all, that structural formula of ester doesn't even exist in our syllabus]

yes, i got wrong in answering that question because =H doesn't exist.
see how a little typing error could make a big difference?

[this is my reference book. and see? there are no such thing as double bond H in ester]

[you can only see double bond O, right?]

[this is a covalent bond that only exists between non-metal atoms]

[but then the answer says "ACCEPTS"]

from what i've been learning for two years, only ionic bond [that exists between metal and non-metal] could donate and accept or gain electrons.
i've done some research from the internet and reference book.



[wrong grammar]

[you forgot the "H"]

[you're only asking about metal Y and metal X. then where does the Z comes from?]

there are lots of errors like that that really has misled me.
i feel like that book isn't going to help me to improve!

the worst typing error is this : 

[the equation that the editor of this book typed is utterly wrong. it was not 3H3 but 3H2]

in exams, we are expected to be able to write chemical equations correctly and to balance them is compulsory.
how do you expect students to become clever because of your books if the contents of your books will only make the students feel more confused?
what if some students actually write that wrong equation on examination.
what can you do to fix that?

i really regret in buying these books.
worst of all, i've bought three of them which are Chemistry, Physics and Additional Mathematics.
three of them have the most wrong answer and lots of typing errors.

okay i'm done.
all i'm trying to say is i highly do not recommend this book.
very unprofessional.
and money flew without any gain.

3 dropped words~

-ghost whisperer can't be heard-